I woke up this morning at 7am and felt energized and motivated to go for a run. I rolled over and saw that it was gray outside but it looked peaceful. I checked the weather on my iPhone and saw that it was supposed to rain. I saw that it was 41 degrees and I thought to myself, "That is warm. I can run in that."
I got out of bed and realized that it was Sunday so I needed to weigh myself. My motivation suddenly dwindled. I got out the scale and weighed myself like I have every Sunday since January 1 when I began to concentrate on my wellness. I weighed myself to find out that again I had gained. I have gained steadily over the past few weeks and I knew I was going to gain again. I just have not been motivated to follow my plan with the holidays approaching. Realizing that over the past few weeks I have gained 4 lbs (not terrible; but it still doesn't feel good), I just wanted to crawl back in bed and go to sleep.
Shouldn't seeing weight gain motivate me to get out there and work out? Shouldn't it motivate me to drink water and eat like I know I should? Why does it do the opposite? Why did I then feel like, "I just want to go back to bed?"
Disappointment. Struggle. Knowing it is hard work to lose that 4lbs that I gained? Do I really want to do this? It is only going to get worse if I don't just get out there and do something.
I took Polo on his morning walk. All the while telling myself that it was chilly and gray. It was also quiet and peaceful and exactly what I needed to clear my head.
After taking Polo for a walk, I put on my running shoes. I told myself I needed to go out and do it.
To motivate myself, I set a new running goal. I have been running 28 minutes straight for the past couple of weeks thinking that I couldn't possibly run 30 minutes straight. Today I needed to accomplish something that seemed big to me. I ran 30 minutes straight. I ran my fastest mile yet.
I was also motivated to fire up the Charity Miles app because I knew that with every mile that I ran, I would be earning money for the ASPCA. Did you know that you can earn money for a charity of your choice by using the free Charity Miles app?
Throughout my run I reflected on my struggle this morning. I am still reflecting. What matters is that I did it.
What are you doing today?