I turned off the news right away. I felt depressed and sick to my stomach. Selfishly I thought, "not on my birthday. I don't want to see the tragedy unfold on my birthday." So I tried my best to just carry on with my day. I went to work, yoga class, and then home. I peeked at my twitter feed every now and again when I received a message and saw updates about the tragedy. I felt so sad but was still trying to have a good time even though my heart was filled with sadness.
After work D and I had planned to go see Batman. I told him that I was not feeling up to it but I would like to see Spiderman instead. I couldn't sit through Batman waiting for the moment that he started shooting. I didn't want to imagine the situation or think about what people had to go through while trying to enjoy a movie. I was nervous about going to the movies at all. What if there is another attack because of all the media attention?
July 20, 2012 was such a sad day and a day I will never forget.
How did you spend July 20, 2012?