I have taken a couple of months off of intense blogging and now that I come back to it, I find that the biggest reason I can't motivate myself to blog is that I feel like I have missed out on so much.
Sure, I have missed reading blogs and commenting and having a relationship with others in the blogosphere. But what really intimidates me like no tomorrow is the vast array of talent that is out there. Talent in making your blog look like a million bucks. The newest most amazing fonts, with fun backgrounds, professional photos, and the list goes on. The pretty sponsor ads are also intimidating because I see how many awesome people are out there that I internally am competing with.
I keep asking myself why it bothers me so much. Why do I let competition with blogging get to me? I don't allow competition to be a major force in my life anywhere else? It is really quite odd.
I used to be able to write without a care. Okay maybe that isn't true. I did care about what I was writing but it seems that now I overly care and am always wondering, "no that is boring. who wants to read about that?" Truth is that the topic could be something really rad and I just won't write about it because I don't have fun pictures to show with gorgeous matching font and wit.
Perhaps what I am feeling is a bit silly? I assure you these feelings are real. I had a super fun photo for this post and of course I can't get it to work. I need computer lessons. I need confidence in blogging lessons. I need...to get a life.